The first few, of what would come to be, many nightmares:

Feb. 10th
I don't why I keep having subtly disturbing dreams. This morning, I had a dream that I was depositing a bag of my dog's dead body (with tissues of blood inside) to the funeral parlor. I was getting choked up, even though it seemed to have happened weeks ago. They had me sign some papers and scheduled it for a Sunday in July. I was thinking in my dream that it was a long time to have a dead body lying around, and if they did taxidermy.

I also had some faint dreams of going to India and not really having a good time. I was waiting for a girl to pick me up in a taxi, but had to pay my own way. We went to visit a friend who had a yard with lots of stubbly weeds and ants, which were crawling all over my feet. The scenery looked oddly like what's in my dreams of NYC, although more of a countryside instead. I'm trying to remember more now, but it keeps flickering in and out. I know there's something else that happened, I just can't grasp it right now. Maybe it'll come to me later when I least expect it, which is usually the case.

It also reminds me of another dream I had a few weeks ago, where I was at this thrift shop where all my grandma's old things were being sold. We were trying to buy them back (I don't know if she was still around.) They had an old train car that was furnished to look like the 40s, and there were some of her old clothes, shoes and a wardrobe inside. We were finding her old dresses and rolling up a big carpet or comforter. The first thing I had spotted that was hers was a box that had her name engraved in it, with a picture I recognized on the front.

Labels: ants, death, dog, family, train, travel

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I could go into detail here about these particular dreams, but I think it's much more interesting to leave it to the perplexed imagination to decipher these riddle-like phrases:

2009 (Dates Unknown)
- ant war with badgers, secret hotel room with ovens on, stuff left in oven and pantry, kit kat machine that has screen, deceased prostitute/porn star leaving curse

- transported to england, very blue oceans for miles to see

- fell in love with spider

- reading spanish credit report for black stepfather

- no doubt concert, could have won a Toyota or coral jewelry gift certificate if i raised my hand when they sang a certain song that i cant remember now, and had actually never heard them do, so i was googling the lyrics; talking to anna wintour on a couch

- winona movie where she is a strange concubine; me and ryan getting our pizza slices mixed up with two large black women, me throwing one of them because the other ate mine; hanging from a tree and might die if i fall, but didn't.

Labels: animals, ants, kit kat, no doubt, pizza, winona

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